“But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you. Surely, Lord, you bless the righteous; you surround them with your favor as with a shield” (Psalms 5:11-12 NIV).
Today I'm glad God never sleeps.
Last night when I came home from writer's group, the garage door wouldn't go down. I asked Pat to check it.
He forgot. And went to bed.
I assumed he put the door down. And I went to bed.
So the garage gaped open all night—a beacon of vulnerability to anyone who drove down my street. Worse? The door to the house remained unlocked. While my kids slept upstairs.
When I woke up and realized anyone could have walked in my house, that thought shot me three quarters of the way to a coronary. I always check every door. Three times. Paranoia and safety top my priority list. I’m not one of those people who doesn’t worry about the what-if’s.
I play with what-if all day.
What if someone is stalking my children in a large, white, windowless van? What if my eleven-year-old daughter goes to the restroom in the Taco Bell and never comes out? What if there’s a fire in the middle of the night and we don’t wake up? What if my son falls asleep driving home from college late at night?
What if? What if? What it?
Then a great big wave of peace rolled across my heart and slowed the racing beats. That peace reminded of how often the Lord protects me when I don't even see what He's done.
Today I'm glad God never sleeps.
I'm glad He watches over me, whether I remember to ask Him or not. I'm glad He never misses anything as crucial as a deadbolt turned the wrong way. I'm glad He catches all the details I miss.
If I can trust Him to protect me when I don't know I need protection, how much more should I trust Him when I do?
Yet, I have trouble giving my fears over.
How will we pay for college times three? Will my son pass the pre-nursing exam? Will he pass his yearly oncology screen? Will my fifteen-year-old finish chemistry and get the required credit to graduate? Will he figure out what he wants to do with his life? Will my daughter survive adolescence? Will I survive her adolescence? Will my husband’s job be safe? Will we be able to retire? Pay our bills? Will I accomplish everything I need to in the time I don' t have?
And the list of will's goes on. We all have a list. A list of concerns, needs, wants, fears and stumbling blocks. Some of us also tack on a list of what-if’s. And all that stress is enough to send any of us into a full-blown coronary.
Here’s a world shaker. What if I’ve opened my arms and invited all that stress? Embraced it. Breathed it in. Let the tension and fear lock me down.
For no reason at all.
Because God says:
“For the word of the Lord is right and true; he is faithful in all he does” (Psalms 33:4).
If I believe the Word, and the Word says He is faithful in all He does, I need to believe He is faithful in all He does. Even when I forget to ask Him. He knows what I need. He even knows what I want. And sometimes His blessings include things I never imagined.
That's the most comforting feeling in the world.
And so much safer than seven deadbolts and a steel-reinforced garage door.
Thank you, Lord, for being there for me. Even when I don’t know I need You.
Lori Freeland is a freelance author from Dallas, Texas with a passion to share her experiences in hopes of connecting with other women tackling the same issues. She holds a bachelor's degree in psychology from the University of Wisconsin-Madison and is a full-time homeschool mom. You can find Lori at lafreeland.com and regularly blogging on Crosswalk.
Publication date: February 7, 2013